I'm Katie. I like music and writing and singing. I'm a bit depressed as well. My moods are inconsistent and I overthink things. I have a lot of conflicting views. Silent movies. Criminal Minds and House MD. The Dresden Dolls, Modest Mouse, Bright Eyes, Brand New, Taking Back Sunday, Coldplay, Blur, Gorillaz, Andrew Bird, Radiohead, Muse, Bon Iver, Ratatat, The Shins, The National, Arcade Fire. I'm an anachronism. ~ Ask. Stats.
I love strangers.
So tired of feeling watched.
Every time I make plans, I have to inform my parents and they ask a thousand questions that I do not want to answer.
Every school night, my parents ask me if I have homework, if I have it done, and if not, when am I planning to do it?
Although the law would allow me to have a friend in the car, my parents will not.
And now it’s summer, and I’d expect a break, but I feel almost more confined because I’m under watch all day now instead of just when I get home. At night, if I’m still awake when they’re going to bed, they say “when are you planning on going to bed? hopefully not too much longer.” Every so often they give me a new list of things I need to get done for them, on top of everything else I want to finish for myself this summer, and it’s overwhelming.
Summer is supposed to be a break from all the questions and the pressure and the need to be perfect. Why isn’t that happening in my house?
I know it’s a good thing to have parents that care. At least there are rules in my house. But I’ve never been one to rebel, and I don’t understand why they think I’ll start now. It’s as if because I am depressed, it automatically means I’ll try to defy my parents’ rules.
I’m more likely to try to defy their rules if they’re enforcing them like this.
But there’s no way out, because in the end, I’m a good girl, and they’re my parents.
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